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Life is not lost by dying; life is lost minute by minute, day by dragging day, in all the thousand small uncaring ways. - Stephen Vincent Benét


R.I.P. Brownie
You will not be forgotten





Brownie came to us for a short stay a little over 2 weeks back. She was an extremely cute and lovable guinea pig with a gentle and timid nature. During her short stay here, I looked forward to seeing her cute face outside the house of her cage and calling out her name softly to get her attention. Brownie also managed to melt Mitch's usual cold attitude towards animals. She enjoys eating hay, carrots, apples and occasionally her typical feed. Mav told me she has not bitten anyone before and true to her words, kind little Brownie had never sunk her teeth into me no matter how much I reached my hands in to pat her. So when I heard her stumble out and collapse beside her food bowl, I was both shocked and worried. Just yesterday she was still breathing heavily and fighting to stay alive.





In loving memory, 27/9/2007.


It sometimes takes just a pet to make one realise that life is indeed short and transient. There are a lot of things in life that people do that had left them with regret and sadness. She makes me look at the way I am, and the way I live my life. I wished I could turn back time and perhaps, I could have done a lot of things differently.

Sorry, Browns. Please rest in peace.

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Sometimes I really feel a strong urge to shut down this blog as I update like...once in a blue moon? However, I don't bear to as I'm really proud of certain entries and I do really feel like blogging once in a while.

Anyways, today, SH told me about a show on scv called "Miami Ink"....bloody hell, made me so tempted to watch it. If not for my mum, sisters, and the possibilities of being ostracized in our narrow minded society (it is true no matter how one argues, our island is def not open to even some degree of extremity...so I better not play play first) , I think I would have gotten inked all over the place. Tattoos always fascinate me, and the thoughts of inking cross my mind more than a few times a week. Then again, I'm too f**king broke now...if I do new ink, that would mean the money meant for shopping during my holland/germany/belgium trip this end of the year would go up in smoke. Shopping or ink? I guess shopping takes the cake. Been toying with the idea of doing a cover-up job for my back star piece (tinge of regret over the simplicity of it)...wanted to add more details, shadings etc. But always too paiseh to bug artists too often for customization. SO, I better have the $$, time & sense of non-paisehness (if there's such a word) to search for a good artist to personally customize something to cover it up, probably after graduation (2+ years from now). If I graduate and have to work in a white-collared job, then all thoughts of more inking will go down the bin. But if I'm gonna earn the money I want and yet be able to do something I'm passionate about (of cos, not white-collared based), then I guess a shoulder, ear and hip piece is on the line-up. & I'll make sure these are the ones I won't regret. But first of all, let me get my priorities right:

1) Lose another 15 - 18 kgs
2) Improve the condition of my ever deteriorating skin
3) Grad with a good honors
4) Nose Job or filler injections
5) Get a job that will earn me more than just enough

If it is not a white-collared job that requires me to be sqeaky clean, then,

6) Get cover up and some new inks

And if it is a stringent job, then,

7) Hold off plans for new ink but still do the cover up

But if I can save enough to set up my own business by early 30s

8) Get the inks done after that

9) Try to lead a fulfilling life with goals achieved and an understanding husband by my side :)

Yea hoo!


































In an idealized world according to my thoughts, I would like to have inks like Kat von D...




Ink without having a care in the world...Ink as my guilty pleasure...Ink without restrictions...