This quote is a classic...

Adam: Come on, give me a little BJ, up and down a couple times, you're done, it's easy!
Samantha: Easy? You men have no idea what we're dealing with down there. Teeth placement, and jaw stress, and suction, and gag reflex, and all the while bobbing up and down, moaning and trying to breathe through our noses. Easy? Honey, they don't call it a job for nothin'! - From "Sex and the City"

So 2005 had crept right past us without a trace and then, Poof! here comes 2006. So how did i spend the last day of 2005? I'm way past the times where i don't mind getting into the heightened "estasy" of counting down the new year in an extremely crowded place (orchard or sentosa or whatever) and squeezing through tons of sweaty and disgusting bodies. So what did i do on the last few days of 2005? I spent a "grand" time slacking around and watching videos. Latest addiction: Sex & the city DVDs my sis bought from her last trip to shanghai. I managed quite a feat by completing 3 seasons in 3 days. i also managed the "feat" of putting off tons of assignments just to watch videos. Where have my priorities gone to?

To digress, I would like to reenact an incident that happened 4 days before 2005, when my computer screwed up on me. I was seriously pissed. How many times must the computer screw up on me? So i gingerly rang up my friend Grace and asked if she would accomany me to go fix my com. Turns out, i have a graphics card problem (which was actually not the problem but i was so silly to forget to install my driver for the old graphics card after i reformatted the com last time). The person fixing the com would need to test out some videos on my com to see the colour on the monitor. So he sieved through my com and i suddenly had a panic attack. I realised that the other time when i tried downloading the movie "monster's ball" (starring halle belly and billy bob), i didn't manage to download the full version of the movie. instead, i got the sex scence only. To top the worse bit off, i forgot to delete that damn file off my com. After walking off with grace and waiting for the repair guy to call me, i realised my folly and promptly told Grace. We ended up with this absolute statement. "who doesn't watch a bit of porn nowadays?" So i decided that i would be cool about it, albeit the bad aftertaste of everything.

Then again, I figured out that watching sex and the city gave me an awakening. Why should i be acting so tightly wound up? I mean, who am i to judge myself or others point of view towards sex-related stuff? We are entitled to our own opinions. After all, i also watch R21 movies from time to time and sometimes, i do allow my head to go to la-la land and think about you-know-what stuff. I had even watched videos of lesbain and gay sex before... it is only that i used to feel embarassed about admitting such stuff...However, i realised that there is nothing shameful about admitting, sometimes stuff like these are just part and parcel of growing up. I mean, these are some of the stuff that you experience while growing up... i find that it is fine now, as long as i don't put them into actual physical practice. So why did i judge people last time? Watching the series is kinda like a wake-up call to me...kinda like a sexual awakening. Not that i will now go and run along the streets asking for sex-related experiences...but rather, i find that my point of view had become more open. After so many years, i'm finally getting it, sometimes the only path to a life well lived is to stop hiding and start being true to yourself.

Ok, i think i'm getting out of point.