Time is a cruel thief to rob us of our former selves. We lose as much to life as we do to death - Elizabeth Forsythe Hailey

Within a span of 12 hours, i caught 3 movies... This may not be what you call a feat,but to me, it is. I seldom have time for myself nowadays, considering the state of affairs i'm in. Though rather mundane a life i lead,i had always been kept busy. So yesterday was "I Love Me" day. I let myself go and watched 3 movies. Wow. However, i only have this weekend to "love myself" before been yet engulfed into another period of frenzy & late nights. (doing endless school assignments) I start wondering if the biological clock of my social life is ticking away far too fast for me to catch up. It seems that i can never really find time to bond with people that mattered to me and do things that my heart so desire. It frightens me sometimes that i indeed am running out of time. Sometimes i look out of the window, especially when i'm on a bus. I stare hard at the vast blue skies & i wondered how it would be like if i'm not born here. Not that it isn't good here...Life is not too shabby, but i could do better elsewhere. I'm what someone would call a "wild at heart" (maybe years ago they would still call me that without a doubt) I want to explore the world. I want to go to Europe and backpack my way through...I want to go to New York, the city that never sleeps...I want to visit Central Park, Madison Square Garden, Disney land, Gold Coast, Greece, Turkey, Egypt...I want to go places. Sometimes even, i wished i had more talent. Talent could take me places. I wished i had more money. Money could take me places. What's the use of having more soul & no money or talent...it would be dreaming upon a wishful star. Time and tide wait for no man, and at a grand age of 21, i see the world as what you would call a tornado, spiralling so fast into nothing. I sadly admit that in my life thus far, i had not made many sensible decisions. I didn't really fight hard enough for anything although i had nothing, and i thought that having nothing would actually drive me harder to work for something. Relationships, i have none, Money, i have none, Time, i have none. So where does that place me? I really can't take it lying down.


If only i could turn back time.