Be patient & tough, someday this pain will be useful to you. - Unknown

Some days, it seems that nothing is going right. In a short span of 1 week, I received 2 negative news. & it doesn't help that I had got my heart a little wounded this week as well. Damn, I am not even sure if it is the heart or the ego (but how can that individual pose such an effect?). However, the consensus is that I am now entering a next phrase of my life, which is more realistic and less impractical than what I am used to, thus, moods and feelings tend to be a little volatile. Lumping all these negative energies and releasing it to unsuspecting individuals do sound a tad unfair. Then, I think about the bad things that apple will be doing which will make me sad. Starting from ground milky-way back to ground zero seems such a distant dream now. A mistake to let this poison continue, really...taking more than a bite from the poisonous fruit has its repercussions. Between battling with myself and my ego, I had to agree that it scares the shit outta me. Involvement; both a scary and loaded word.

Back home, it is safe to say that the rental thing is settled for the next year. So we get to stay put and the roof is intact. After all, the worst feeling you can get is not having the assurance of a safe and stable abode. It disgusts me sometimes that with all these issues, I still manage to squeeze time to think about useless people and things, & also, waste time in wanting to fulfill off the wall fantasies. What a terror I am.

I hope I can say goodbye to soon...