After 1.5 months of hiatus, I finally found the time (& energy) to blog again! During this time, I'm not remotely busy, but the time had been spent on working 5.5 days in my transition job & exercising a tad more frequently.

Anyway, a few weeks ago whilst traveling on the bus, I witnessed a simple yet touching scene of an elderly man assisting his wheelchair-bound wife on board:


Though the gesture was simple, the action and expression of this couple spoke volumes. It tells of a love that had been built through years of companionship and patience. & all of the sudden, snippets of the typical wedding vow: "In sickness & in health, til death do us part", came to my mind.

Many of us dream of a love that is passionate, enduring, nurturing, secure and romantic. Some of us find it, some of us find it with some of these elements missing, & some of us might never find it in this life. It is also true that being young, we have the excuse to experiment with things and to make a few mistakes. It is also true that during certain periods, we can be left by ourselves or be surrounded with friends. But ultimately as we mature, some part of us hope that we won't wind up in solo journeys. We will all, at some point, crave for company that mere friends or our own thoughts can't provide.

Back to the topic, (pardon my wax-lyrical tirade above). Though I think it is possible to find love in today's society, the definition of "love" had changed with time. In comparison with our past generations, love can be found through many more channels. Technology such as internet & mobile phones enable us to hook up with friends and strangers easier. We can find more cases of "instant chemistry" because contacting someone instantly had never been so easy.

But with this instant chemistry comes with the lack of patience. People become less tolerant of each other and judgment at face-value becomes a necessary accompaniment. We do not sit and wait around for things to happen or discover slowly, the wonders of getting to know a person. We opt for the lazy way of having 1-2 dates, getting together as a couple first and then seeing if things can be worked out from there on (between the sheets or otherwise, depending on personal principles). We do not give lee-ways for mistakes and hardly change our opinions about something we already have an impression on. There are no rights or wrongs in this way, it is just a natural progression. As the world changes, it is inevitable that the dynamics of dating evolve as well. As humans currently running this race, we have no choice but to adapt and gradually let this, along with many other things, be the way of life.

Just recently, I had been embroiled in a spate of mind-boggling & exasperating events along these lines. I groused, let tempers flare and allowed myself to be both emotional & melodramatic. As the week comes to a close, I look back and recognize that it is not wrong to express openly and with real emotion about my thoughts and feelings. To realize that I am but human and no matter how cool and independent I set myself up to others, there is a part of me that craves understanding from that someone which I fervently hope, will possess the maturity, sensitivity and kindness. At the grand old age of 26 (though I had not accumulated quality experience, but still, a fair share), I have come to a point that I WANT to stop feeling too disgruntled. I've realized that more than anything, the best way to cope is not through putting expectations on others. But rather, changing your own mindset & taking control of your own life (not saying that this is the easiest thing). By doing so, that someone mature, sensitive and kind will stop becoming a figment of imagination or expectation, but rather, start becoming more apparent because our eyes have been opened (confusing, but you get the drift).

I know this is by no means an easy feat, but I remain optimistic.